Kusadzikonda kokha mwa Yesu kumabweretsa kukwaniritsidwa kwenikweni. Kuchokera kwa osadziwika

Nthawi yowerenga: 10 min

Ndikukumbukira kuti ndinakopeka ndi amuna omwewo kuyambira kusukulu ya pulayimale. Ndinkadziwa mmene ana ena amaonera anthu amene si amuna kapena akazi anzawo.

Komabe, sindinkadziwa mmene ndingachitire ndi maganizo anga. Koma sindinkafuna kuuza aliyense za nkhaniyi. Sindinkafuna kutchuka, ndimakonda kukhala ndi ubale wabwino. Koma kumverera kukhala wosiyana kunalibe.

Kuyambira ndili wamng'ono, malingaliro anga m'matumbo anandiuza kuti payenera kukhala chifukwa chokopa. Koma ndi chifuniro chabwino koposa m’dziko sindikanatha kukumbukira choyambitsa chirichonse: Sindinagonedwepo konse, mmalo mwake ndinali ndi banja lokhazikika, lotetezera lokhala ndi makolo achikondi aŵiri ndi kuleredwa kwachikristu.

Posafuna kuchita zomwe ndikumvera m'moyo weniweni, ndidatembenukira pa intaneti kuti ndikwaniritse chikhumbo changa chokhala pachibwenzi. Poyamba ndinkangowerenga za kugonana kwa amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, koma pang’onopang’ono ndinakumana ndi zinthu zolaula. Sindinauze aliyense zakukhosi ndipo ndinkangotsatira zofuna zanga. Poyamba sindinamve chilichonse choyipa. Pambuyo pake, komabe, ndinayenera kuphunzira ndekha kuti: »Mtima wa munthu ndi wodetsedwa, wosayerekezeka komanso wosasinthika. Ndani angaone mmenemo? (Yeremiya 17,9:XNUMX)

Ndinali ku koleji komwe ndinagonana ndi munthu weniweni. Zaka zonse za chikhumbo chachinsinsi tsopano zinafika pachimake pazochitika zogonana popanda kudzipereka ndi udindo. Ndinkadziwa kuti ndinali kuvulaza ena pogwiritsa ntchito zolaula komanso kuyesa kuyesa, koma sindinathe kusiya. Ndinabisa zonsezi kwa anzanga ndi achibale anga, kukhala ndi moyo wachiphamaso. Mwa njira inanso inamveka bwino; koma kupanda pake komwe kumatsatira nthawi zonse kumapweteka. Ndinatha kumvetsa vesi la m’Baibulo limene limanena kuti mwa kugonana munthu amakhala “thupi limodzi” ndi mnzake; pakuti aliyense wa ife pokhala odzipereka kwa wina ankamva ngati kudulidwa maganizo. Sindinkafuna tanthauzo lenileni la zimene ndinkachita, komanso sindinkaganiziranso zimene zidzachitike m’tsogolo chifukwa cha zochita zanga. Sindinkafuna ubale wodzipereka ndipo zomwe ndidachita zinali zoledzera kotheratu.

Uthenga wabwino unalowa m'moyo wanga wamdima

Ndisanakhale ku koleji, ndinali ndisanayesepo maganizo anga pogwiritsa ntchito chikhulupiriro changa. Sindinaganizepo ngati kuli kulakwa kuganiza za anthu monga zinthu; ankaganiza kuti kukopeka ndi amuna kapena akazi okhaokha kudzatha. Nditazindikira kuti sizili choncho, ndinafunafuna njira yothetsera vutoli. Panthaŵi imodzimodziyo, ndinakumana ndi wophunzira mnzanga amene anandipempha kuti ndiziphunzira Baibulo ndi atate ake, abusa. Aka kanali koyamba kuti munthu wina anakhala nane pansi n’kundisonyeza chifukwa chake ndiyenera kukhulupirira Baibulo ndi nkhani ya Yesu. Chidwi changa chauzimu chinadzutsidwa, kundipangitsa kuganiza kuti mwina Chikristu ichi sichinthu chabe chimene “ndimakhulupirira” koma kuti chingakhale chowonadi. Ndinazindikiranso kuti ndinali ndi vuto osati ndi chilakolako chokha, komanso kunyada, kupembedza mafano, umbombo ndi kusaleza mtima. Pamene ndinkaphunzira Baibulo linayamba kundigwira mtima kwambiri. Ndinaphunzira uthenga wabwino mozama ndikuwona dongosolo la Mulungu la chipulumutso mu kuwala kwatsopano.

Ndinamvetsetsanso dongosolo loyambirira la Mulungu la chilengedwe ndi ukwati wake, ndipo ndinakhulupirira ndi mtima wonse lemba la Aroma 7,12:XNUMX , lomwe limati: “Lamulo ndi loyera, ndi lamulo loyera, lolungama, ndi labwino;

Inde, kwa ine monga munthu amene sanapeze njira yosunga lamulo, limenelo linali vuto. Ndinathamangira kudziwononga ndekha. Ndinkakhulupirira kuti moyo wanga uyenera kuphedwa kuti nditeteze anthu amene ndikanawavulaza. Pozindikira kuti ndinali kudzivulaza ndekha ndi ena mwa kutsatira zilakolako zanga, ndinafuulira kwa Mulungu m’mawu a Paulo akuti, “Munthu watsoka! Adzawombola ndani m’thupi la imfa iyi?” ( Aroma 7,24:XNUMX ) Adzandiwombola ndani.

Ndinali wofunitsitsa kumasulidwa ku thupi limeneli lomwe linkakonda zosangalatsa kuposa anthu komanso ine ndekha. Ndinadzipeza kukhala “wopusa, wosamvera, wonyengedwa, ndi kapolo wa chilakolako chilichonse ndi zokondweretsa,” ndikukhala “m’choipa ndi kaduka, wodedwa, ndi woda” ( Tito 3,3:8,32 ). Ndikayerekeza kudzikonda kwanga ndi chikondi cha Mulungu, amene “sanatimana Mwana wake wa iye yekha, koma anampereka chifukwa cha ife tonse.” ( Aroma 6,5:XNUMX ) Ndinangoganiza kuti: “Tsoka ine, nditayika! Pakuti ndine wa milomo yonyansa, ndipo ndikhala pakati pa anthu a milomo yonyansa; pakuti ndaona mfumu, Yehova wa makamu, ndi maso anga.”— Yesaya XNUMX:XNUMX .

Sindinayerekeze kuti ndikumvetsa zonse, koma ndinadziwa chinthu chimodzi: Ngakhale kuti Mulungu sanandichotsere ululu wonse wa kukopeka kwa amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, mwina amamvetsa ululu wanga.

M’Baibulo ndinaŵerenga kuti Mulungu anatsika kuchokera kumwamba kudza ku dziko losweka lino kupyolera mwa Yesu kudzamva zowawa ndi kukanidwa ndi kutisonyeza ife chikhalidwe chake. Ngakhale kuti sindinkamvetsa chifukwa chake anafera, ndinkadziwa kuti anandifera. Zimenezi zinanditsimikizira kuti amandikonda kwambiri kuposa mmene ndimaganizira. Kudzera mwa Mzimu Woyera, iye tsopano akugawira ena chikondi chake chololera kuvutikira ena. Ngakhale kachigawo kakang’ono ka chikondi chimenecho n’cholimba moti n’kutha kuthetsa mchitidwe uliwonse wadyera kapena kumwerekera. Ndinalapa kuchimwa kwanga kwa amuna ena, kuti ndinawapweteka ndi kunyalanyaza tsogolo lawo lopatsidwa ndi Mulungu. Choncho ndinasiya kugonana, ndikudalira kuti chikondi cha Mesiya chidzandithandiza kuti ndigonjetse mayesero. Chikhumbo changa sichinathe, koma ndinapeza cholinga chatsopano mwa Yesu.

Zikadakhala zosatheka kwa ine kuvomereza zenizeni za mtanda koma osasintha. Ngakhale kuti sindimaganizira nthawi zonse, maganizo anga amandidzaza ndi chikondi cha Mulungu. Ndinapeza yankho lomwelo pakulira kwanga kopempha thandizo limene Paulo anapeza:

“Ndani adzandilanditsa m’thupi la imfa ili? Ndiyamika Mulungu, Yesu Khristu Ambuye wathu!” ( Aroma 7,25:XNUMX )

Mulungu wandionetsa kuti amandikonda, koma dziko limene ndikhalamo silikonda. Mfundo yakuti Yesu anafa imasonyeza kuti iye safuna uchimo ndipo imamupwetekanso. Pali anthu amene akufuna kundipweteka. Sindikudziwa kuti moyo wanga ukanakhala wotani ndikanapanda kukumana ndi ntchito za anthu amene “akuyambitsa zoipa” ( Aroma 1,30:XNUMX ) ndiponso amene alibe zolinga zanga zabwino m’maganizo. Ndayesetsa kutsatira maganizo anga ndipo sindinasangalale. Mulungu wandionetsa kuwala kwa umulungu kwa mgwirizano wa ukwati wa mwamuna ndi mkazi ndi mmene utumiki wa munthu wosakwatira ungakhalire wodalitsika.

Monga mapasa ofanana, ndikudziwa kuti ndimakopeka ndi amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, koma mchimwene wanga yemwe ali ndi DNA yemweyo alibe. Choncho ziyenera kuti zinali zisonkhezero za chilengedwe changa zomwe zinayambitsa zilakolako zachilendozi mwa ine. Ndikukhala m'dziko limene ana amakumana ndi zithunzi zolaula komanso chidziwitso chomwe chimakhudza kwambiri moyo wawo wabanja wamtsogolo komanso tsogolo la anthu - m'dziko limene anthu mamiliyoni ambiri amadya zolaula pa intaneti. Ngakhale sindikudziwa chomwe chimayambitsa kugonana kwa amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, ndikudziwa kuti zayambitsa chisokonezo ndi mikangano m'moyo wanga.

Yesu watsimikizira kukhala wodalirika kwa ine, chifukwa ndimavomerezana naye kotheratu kuti: “Palibe munthu ali nacho chikondi chachikulu choposa ichi, chakuti munthu ataya moyo wake chifukwa cha mabwenzi ake.” ( Yohane 15,13:1,17 ) Umboni umene ndili nawo m’Baibulo ndi wakuti: mu Zimene ndapeza m’chondichitikira changa sindingakane: “Mphatso iliyonse yabwino, ndimphatso zonse zangwiro zitsika Kumwamba, kwa Atate wa kuunika, amene mulibe kusandulika, kapena kusintha kwa kuunika ndi mdima.” ( Yakobo XNUMX :XNUMX)

Mwa chisomo cha Mulungu tsopano ndikuyesetsa kudzipereka ndekha ndi ena kagawo kakang'ono ka chikondi chomwe Mulungu ali nacho pa ine. Timasemphana maganizo ndi zinthu zoipa za m’dzikoli ndi chikondi cha Mulungu. Ndicho chifukwa chake ndinafunafuna ndi kupeza mtendere m’kukhulupirira Mawu a Mulungu. Zimenezo zinasintha moyo wanga. Tsopano nditha kukwaniritsa udindo wanga ndi kusangalala ndi mphatso zabwino zimene Mulungu wandipatsa. Kwa ine zimenezi zikutanthauzanso kudzipereka ndi kukana zinthu zina zimene Mulungu safuna m’moyo wanga. Koma ndimaona kuti zimene ndikusiya sizili zamtengo wapatali ngati moyo watsopano umene Yesu anandipatsa komanso chiyembekezo cha moyo wosatha. Palibe kuyerekeza!

Gwero: Nkhani ya Coming Out Ministries, Meyi 2023.
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