Zaka zisanu ndi ziwiri za chiyembekezo chabodza. Wolemba Michael Carducci

Nthawi yowerenga: 10 min

Linali Lolemba June 6; Ndinali m’ndege kupita kunyumba kuchokera ku nkhani ku Florida kubwerera ku Knoxville, Tennessee. Mwadzidzidzi mutu unandipweteka ndipo ndinachita chizungulire. Nditatera ndege ziwiri, nthawi inali kale pakati pausiku. Ndinazindikira kuti sindingathe kuyendetsa galimoto ulendo wa maola awiri kupita ku famu ya blueberry ya mlongo wanga. Nditafufuza mahotela anayi, ndinapeza chipinda chimene ndingathe kugona ndi kupuma. Kutacha ndinanyamuka ulendo wopita kumene ndinkapita chifukwa ndinali ndi matenda a chimfine. Cholinga changa chinali chinthu chokhacho m'maganizo mwanga: kuti ndipumule ndikuchira.

Sabata isanakwane ndidalembapo pa Facebook ndipo wina adandiyankha kuti sindimatsatira. Sizinadziwike bwino mu mbiri yake kuti munthuyu anali jenda lanji. Ndinachita chidwi koma sindinkafuna kuchita mwano kwambiri ndipo ndinayamba kumuthokoza chifukwa cha zomwe ananena ndikuyembekeza kuyamba kucheza naye. Zinagwira ntchito, ndipo ndinati, "Kutengera mbiri yanu, mwina muli ndi nkhani yosangalatsa yoti munene," yomwe adavomereza. Popanda kuganiza kulikonse, ndinanena kuti mwina tinali ndi zinthu zambiri zofanana.

Zolemba zomwe zimakupangitsani kulira

Ndinamutumizira zolemba zathu za Journey Interrupted (zopezeka kwaulere pa: JourneyInterrupted.com m'zinenero XNUMX) ndipo ndinamufunsa maganizo ake. Ataona filimuyo, anayankha kuti iye ndi mkazi wake anagwetsa misozi. Posachedwapa adasiya moyo wake wa transgender, atakhala kale ngati mkazi kwa zaka zopitilira zisanu ndi chimodzi. Adzalemba nkhani yake ndikutumiza kwa ine. Ndinamufunsa ngati angandiuze pafoni, ndikakhala mgalimoto ndikuchokera ku airport. Mpaka nthawi imeneyo, tinali titatumizirana mameseji. Iye anavomera.

Pa phewa lolimba

Ndili ndi zonse zomwe zinali m'galimoto ndikupita kummawa kwa Tennessee, ndinatcha "bwenzi langa mwa Khristu" latsopano. Titakambirana kwa mphindi khumi ndi zisanu, galimoto yanga inayamba kuyimilira ndipo inatsika pang'onopang'ono pakati pa msewu wamtunda wa makilomita anayi kudutsa Knoxville! Munthawi yabwinobwino izi zikanandipangitsa kukhala wovuta kwambiri, koma ndidasokonezedwa ndi kufooka kwanga komanso matenda anga achiwiri a Covid. Komanso, ndinali kufa kumva nkhani yake yodabwitsa yotembenuka!

Nditazunguliridwa ndi ma semi-tracks ndi magalimoto ena, ndinayatsa magetsi owopsa ndikuwongolera galimotoyo paphewa lolimba mwachangu momwe ndingathere isanayime. Nditaimirira pamenepo mosadodometsedwanso, ndidamvetsera mwachidwi ngakhale Covid! Ndinamvetsera kwa mphindi 45 ndipo sindinafune kumusokoneza pa nkhani yake. Galimoto yanga yosweka kapena matenda anga sanandiletse kumumvetsera! Atamaliza, tinatamanda Mulungu ndi kupemphera limodzi. Apa m’pamene ndinavomera kuti ndinali m’mbali mwa msewu, koma kuti nkhani yake inali yolimbikitsa kwambiri moti ndinayamba kumva ngati ndili kumwamba ndipo sindinaone vuto langa. Tinasekera limodzi ndipo tinaganiza zongolumikizana.

Choncho ndinaitana anthu a m’mbali mwa msewu ndipo ndinawauza kuti andikokere ku garaja. Zonse zitakonzedwa, ndinabwereka galimoto ulendo wonse. Kumapeto kwa sabata ndimatha kunyamula galimoto yanga ndikubweza galimoto yobwereka. Panthawiyi, zomwe ndimaganiza zinali kukwawa pabedi. Ndinagula zodziyezera ndekha mtawoni ndipo ndinakhala pabedi m'chipinda chokhala kwaokha kwa masiku angapo otsatira.

Osati kukongola konse

Ndinaganiza kuti ndiike zimenezi kuti muone kuti moyo wotumikira Mulungu si wosangalatsa ndiponso wovuta, makamaka ngati mukuyenda maulendo ataliatali ndiponso mukadwala. Koma chondichitikira cha m’mbali mwa msewuchi chikusonyeza bwino chifukwa chimene ndinasiyira nyumba yanga ndi ntchito yanga kuti ndimve nkhani ngati za Rick ndikukhala mbali ya chinthu china cholemera kwambiri komanso chatanthauzo kuposa zimene dziko lakale lino limapereka.

"Koma kwa iye amene angathe kuchita zoposa zimene tipempha kapena kumvetsa, monga mwa MPHAMVU ikugwira ntchito mwa ife." ( Aefeso 3,20:XNUMX )

Rick wandilola kuti ndiphatikizepo mizere yake ngati umboni m'nkhaniyi. Ndikukhulupirira kuti nkhani yake yodabwitsa ndi dalitso kwa inu

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Moyo wanga usanasinthe

Moni wochokera ku Arizona!

Wawa Michael, Kuonera Kanema Wa Ulendo Wosokoneza usiku wathawo kunandigwetsa misozi yachisangalalo pamene ndinaona ndi kumva chikondi cha Mulungu ndi ntchito zake pamoyo wathu. Chifundo chake ndi chisomo chake ndizodabwitsa kwambiri kwa ine. Kotero ndiyesera kukuuzani pang'ono za nkhani yanga.

Kusintha kwanga kukhala Lisk kunayamba mu June 2015. Ndinali ndikumva mosiyana kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 7. Monga inu, ndinalowa muzovala za amayi anga ndipo ndinangomva bwino. Atandigwira kamodzi, sanalankhule kalikonse ndipo anangochokapo. Kotero ine ndinaganiza, ine ndikuganiza izo zikhala bwino. Nditakula pang’ono anayamba kundiseka pamaso pa azichimwene anga aakulu. Ndinaphunzira kutengera chitsanzo cha azichimwene anga aang’ono kuti asandikhudze. Njira zopulumutsira zoyera.

Ndili ndi zaka 13 ndinakhala Mkhristu wobadwanso mwatsopano. Apa ndipamene Mzimu Woyera unayamba kunditsutsa zakumverera kwanga ndi kusokoneza kwanga. Koma ndikamakula, m’pamenenso maganizo ankakula. Sindinapezepo chichirikizo chirichonse kuchokera kwa achibale anga, kupatulapo kuti iwo ankandiseka ponena za malingaliro anga ndi kudzibisa kwanga. Mayi anga ndi bambo anga opeza sanalankhulepo za ine kwa wina aliyense mumpingo wathu. Choncho ndinkangovala nthawi zonse ndikakhala ndekha. Ndinapaka makeup etc.

Ndinasamukira ku Tucson ndi abambo anga pamene ndinali ndi zaka 15 chifukwa ndinali wopandukira kwambiri amayi anga ndi sukulu. Koma sindinasamale! Zinthu sizinasinthe pamene ndinkakhala ndi bambo anga. Chodabwitsa n’chakuti, m’zaka zanga za kusekondale, chikhumbo chofuna kuvala zovala zachikazi chinali pafupi kuzimiririka! Sindinathe kufikira nditakwatiwa patapita zaka zingapo pamene malingaliro ndi chikhumbo chinabwereranso ngati mafunde amphamvu!

Mkazi wanga anadziwa za izo patapita kanthawi ndipo sanadandaule ngati izo zinali kuseri kwa zitseko zotsekedwa. Ndinayesetsa kuleka ndipo ndinapitiriza kupemphera kuti Mulungu andichotsere maganizo amenewa. Koma sindinalimbe mtima kukapempha thandizo ku tchalitchi chathu chifukwa zikanandichititsa manyazi ine ndi banja langa. Chifukwa chake kulimbana kwamkati kudapitilira kuyambira 1992 mpaka 2015!

kusintha

Mu October 2015 ndinafufuza pa intaneti kuti ndiwone ngati panali anthu omwe ali ndi vuto lomwelo. kugunda mwachindunji! Transgender adatulukira muzofufuza zanga ndipo ndikamawerenga zambiri, zonse zidandimveka. Choncho ndinauza ana anga ndi mkazi wanga kuti kuyambira tsopano ndidzakhala mkazi, zivute zitani! Mosazindikira, ndinasiyanso kutumikira Mulungu.

Moyo wanga pambuyo pa kusintha

Choncho kwa zaka 7 zotsatira ndinayesetsa kukhala mkazi mmene ndikanathera. Ndinasinthanso dzina langa, chilolezo choyendetsa galimoto, khadi lachitetezo cha anthu, ndi zina zotero. Poyamba zinali gehena. Ndinatsala pang'ono kutaya ana anga, mkazi wanga ndi banja lawo. Koma mwa chisomo cha Mulungu, iwo potsiriza anaima pafupi nane. Sindinadziwe kuti akhala akundipempherera zaka zonsezi kuti Mulungu andichotse mu bodza komanso kudzinyenga ndekha. Ndinachita khungu ndipo sindinkafuna kumvetsera aliyense pankhaniyi.

Bwererani ku mpikisano

Kumayambiriro kwa moyo wanga "watsopano", ndinapeza kuti endocrinologist wanga anali wokonda kupalasa njinga ngati ine. Mwana wake wamwamuna anali ngakhale woyendetsa mipikisano yothamanga kwambiri. Tsiku lina pa ulendo wanga, anandifunsa ngati ndingakondenso mpikisano wothamanga. Ndinangoseka ndikukana. Othamangawo sakanatenga nawo mbali! Koma patatha mwezi umodzi, gulu la Arizona Women's Racing Team lidawonekera pa chakudya changa cha Facebook, ndipo nditawerenga za gululo, ndidakumbukira zomwe dokotala adandiuza za mpikisanowo. Chifukwa chake ndidadziuza kuti, "Zatani!" ndipo popanda kukweza chiyembekezo changa, ndidauza gululo. Pafupifupi sabata pambuyo pake wamkulu wa timu adabwerera kwa ine ndikundiuza kuti adandiuza kuti aike mkazi wa trans pa timu ndipo aliyense adavotera! Sindinakhulupirire ndipo ndinali wokondwa kwambiri komanso mantha!

Choyamba, ndinkafuna kuchita gawo loyesa ndipo ndinakumana ndi mnzanga wina mumzinda wanga. Tinayambira m’munsi mwa phiri la Lemoni m’mawa wina. Anaganiza zokwera phirilo pakapita nthawi. Ndinangoganiza: Zapita zopusa! Izi zikhala tsoka! Mwanjira ina ndinakwanitsa kukhala pazidendene zake, pafupifupi! Pambuyo pake anati, “Mwachita bwino ndipo mwalandiridwa ku timu.” Pamene ndinayamba kuthamanga ndi timu ya akazi onse ndi kuyamba kupambana mipikisano ingapo, ndinali ndi chiphokoso. Koma mothandizidwa ndi anzanga onse a m’timu, ndinakwanitsa kukopa mitima ndi maganizo a anthu amene sanandivomereze. Ndinakhala maloto! Koma sindinkakhalira moyo Yesu. Ndinkaonabe kuti ndine wopanda pake komanso wosatetezeka. Ndinadzifunsa kuti ndikhala moyo mpaka liti ngati mkazi wa trans, makamaka kugwirizana ndi akazi apamwambawa. Ndinafunikira kutsatira malangizo okhwima kuti ndiloledwe kuchita nawo mpikisano ngati mkazi. Chifukwa chake ndimayenera kumwa mankhwala ochulukirapo kuposa momwe ndimakhalira kuti ndichepetse kuchuluka kwa testosterone yanga. Ndakhala ndikuchita izi pafupifupi zaka 6! Ndipo ndikuganiza kuti pamapeto pake zidandigwira.

kukumana ndi Mulungu

Patangotha ​​miyezi iwiri yapitayo, Mulungu analola kuti matenda abwere kwa ine. Kenako ndinafika poganiza kuti: Ndichoncho; Ndifa! Ndisanadwale kwambiri, ndinaganiza zosiya kumwa mankhwala a mahomoni poyembekezera kuti ndidzakhalabe ndi moyo monga Anna. Ndiye tsiku lina - ndinali ndikusamba! - Mulungu sanangolankhula nane, adandipatsa mbama kumaso, zinali zomveka bwino: Ayi! Simungathe kukhala penapake pakati. Sindimeza madzi ofunda! Ndinasweka ndipo ndinalira maso anga; chifukwa ndimadziwa kuti anali wolondola. Ndinadziwanso kuti uwu unali mwayi wanga womaliza kutembenukira kwa Yesu! Kotero ine ndinati, 'Chabwino, bwana. Ndibweranso kwa inu nthawi yomweyo ndipo 100%!"

Moyo watsopano

Nthawi zonse pamakhala chiyeso chobwerera ku moyo wa Anna kapena kuvala zovala zachikazi apa ndi apo. Koma tsopano ndikudziwa kuti dzina langa lenileni lili mwa Yesu Khristu. Mulungu akalola, mwina tsiku lina ine ndidzatha kuthamanga kachiwiri ndi kupereka Ambuye wanga ndi Mpulumutsi Yesu Khristu matamando onse ndi ulemerero popanga ine wangwiro kachiwiri! Amene!! »

Tsopano sindinenso ndi moyo, koma Khristu ali ndi moyo mwa ine. Ndipo moyo umene ndili nawo tsopano m’thupi langa la imfa, ndili nalo m’chikhulupiriro cha Mwana wa Mulungu, amene anandikonda, nadzipereka yekha chifukwa cha ine.” ( Agalatiya 2,20:XNUMX ) Ameni! Imeneyo ndi gawo laling'ono chabe la nkhani yanga. Ndikuyembekezera kulankhula nanu posachedwa ndipo ndikuyembekeza kudzakumana nanu tsiku lina.

Mulungu akudalitseni!

Rick

Kumapeto: Nkhani ya Coming Out Ministries, Julayi 7, 2022

[Nkhani ya Wikipedia yokhudzana ndi kugawikana kwa amuna kapena akazi kuwerengera kuchuluka kwa milandu yomwe sinafotokozedwe molingana ndi mfundo zaku USA pa 1:20, malingaliro amphamvu a transgender 1:50, kumverera kwakukulu kwa transgender 1:150, kusintha popanda opaleshoni 1 :200 , Kusintha ndi OP 1:500.]